I have been married for ten days now. Married.
It has been the best, most beautiful, beginning of my life so far. Most days I wake up and think, is this real life? Somewhere between drinking coffee with, and packing a lunch for, my best friend I have to pinch myself. Forever looks bright as peace settles in. The waves have already begun to come, but it's we who ride them now and that changes everything.
I see differently already. I hear differently. The past few days God has been building a message in me, for my husband -- for our lives. It feels bigger now that someone else is involved. Suddenly the words I'm given, the dreams I have, the things I pray, the promises I'm given and the Truth I see affect us. As my current reality sets in I shake my head and smile; it's both the most exhilarating and the scariest adventure I've ever agreed to. It's our trajectory that I have a picture of now. It's our future that I plan for, dream about and discuss.
Today I'm going to start a conversation that has my stomach bursting with butterflies. It's one I've wanted to have for days, but a gentle voice echoed "wait" in my heart. Eager, my prayers each hour have been ones of "when? now? how?". Assured, the steady response "you'll know" kept coming to my mind. This morning, by 6am, all the pieces fell into place before I had even opened my eyes. Prayers have been answered in a way I couldn't have predicted or anticipated. I'm not sure what is to come. I can't predict how ideas will be received or where things go from here. I just know this is obedience. God is up to something; and His something(s) are always Good. What a sweet, sweet journey we're on.
My husband is on his way home. Here's to courage enough for today.
I see differently already. I hear differently. The past few days God has been building a message in me, for my husband -- for our lives. It feels bigger now that someone else is involved. Suddenly the words I'm given, the dreams I have, the things I pray, the promises I'm given and the Truth I see affect us. As my current reality sets in I shake my head and smile; it's both the most exhilarating and the scariest adventure I've ever agreed to. It's our trajectory that I have a picture of now. It's our future that I plan for, dream about and discuss.
Today I'm going to start a conversation that has my stomach bursting with butterflies. It's one I've wanted to have for days, but a gentle voice echoed "wait" in my heart. Eager, my prayers each hour have been ones of "when? now? how?". Assured, the steady response "you'll know" kept coming to my mind. This morning, by 6am, all the pieces fell into place before I had even opened my eyes. Prayers have been answered in a way I couldn't have predicted or anticipated. I'm not sure what is to come. I can't predict how ideas will be received or where things go from here. I just know this is obedience. God is up to something; and His something(s) are always Good. What a sweet, sweet journey we're on.
My husband is on his way home. Here's to courage enough for today.
